November 1, 2016

For the beautiful weather! 75° and bright blue skies!  A perfect breeze on a perfect fall day!

For the colors of fall!  Nature's paint brush is always so amazing!

For my sweet pup!  I know I include her everyday, but laying in the sun with my face buried in her soft fur is the best feeling in the world!  She loves unconditionally.  As Steve Earle sang "she loves me even when I'm blue."

For cold clean water. In a world where so many don't have access to clean drinking water I'm so very grateful that I do.

For time spent with my best friend!  Some texting.  Some naughty FaceTime.  A beautiful surprise and an amazing way to spend the evening.

October 31, 2016

For the timelessness of It's the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown,  I hope I never lose my love of Charlie Brown!

For the beautiful weather today.  Halloween is usually a crap shoot here.  We've had some of our fiercest storms on Halloween.  Today was a balmy no coat kind of day!  Perfect for trick-or-treating!

For my sweet blonde pup!  She's always just cute enough and crazy enough to make me smile! Watching her play with her ball today is a perfect example.  Of course she insisted on dropping it in a big mud puddle, then happily splashing around in the muddy water after it!  It didn't phase her that she just had a bath 2 days ago for doing the exact same thing.  She finds joy in the moment, which reminds me to as well.

For the universe putting the right people in my life just when I need them.  I had a woman pray the sweetest prayer for me.  It's like she could read my mind and hit on everything my heart felt.  It was an amazing feeling!

For fat bright orange pumpkins!  My heart smiles every time I see them sitting there on the steps of the porch!

New thanks

I took a look over here today, and realized it's been almost a year since I posted. I became so wrapped up in Pea's last days, and making her as comfortable as possible, I neglected this. After I lost her, I felt I had very little to be thankful for.

I lost myself for a while there. Lost myself in medication to numb my heart to the never ending pain that I was experiencing. Tramadol and Oxy were my meds of choice. They allowed me to drift into that place where I stopped feeling. Stopped thinking. Stopped asking God and life what I had done so terribly wrong to deserve this.

I won't go into all the details of why she meant so much to me. I will just say that Sweet Pea was with me through one of the most difficult times in my life. When I lost faith in people, when I lost hope, she was there. I had no idea what I was going to do without her.

If you read my other blog, you know that Honey came into my life. I lost a job I could barely stand, and within a few weeks found a new one, with a pretty substantial pay increase. Bit by bit my smile returned.

So, I think it's time I start posting here again. Pea Pod, I miss you! I will miss typing this each evening without you sleeping next to me. I don't think Honey will sit still long enough to do it with me like you did!

I am thankful for being able to share 13 years of my life with you.

I am thankful for all the things you taught me.

I am thankful for all the sunsets we savored together.

I am thankful for all our days in the kayak.

I am thankful that your energy is still with me. I feel you sometimes. When I need you most. I hear your soft sigh. I smell you scent. I know you are still taking care of me. I will love you always. ~Mama~

Been so long.... Thursday Thanks

I can't seem to keep up with my posts in this blog. Hell, I can barely keep up with the posts in my main blog. I do write my gratitude in my paper journal nightly, I just seem to never get around to transferring them here. Taking care of Sweet Pea has become my main focus. She is doing well. We are seeing a new doctor on Tuesday to see what suggestions she might have. I post more about it in the other blog, so if you are ever want updates on her, that is where you will find them. We are making the most of each day, and taking them as they come.

I've been chewed out a bit my someone who holds my heart from miles away. Even though we talk daily, these journals are their way of staying in touch with my world. The ordinary things in my day, and the photos that make up what I saw and did. Apparently, what I though was a silly mundane thing, is very important to them. I have promised to be more regular with postings and pictures, while their job keeps them far away.

So, here is my Thursday thanks.

1. For a beautiful walk with the Pea. Spring is finally here, despite our thoughts that it would never arrive this year!

2. For a new keyboard! Sounds silly, but if you had to type on one for 8 hours a day and 6 or so keys only worked if you hit an exact spot, you'd understand why it is such a big deal!

3. For the gorgeous sunset we were treated to last night. They never stop amazing me.

4. Grilled asparagus with olive oil and sea salt. Nothing more I need to say about THAT!

5. A letter from a fellow blogger that warmed my heart. Thank you....you! Your kind comments touched me so much. *hugs*

Monday Gratitude

1. Pea had a check up with her doctor today. She is VERY happy with how the wound is healing this second time around! *happy dance*

2. For the beautiful spring weather we had today, and for being able to leave the windows open all day so the kitties could enjoy the sun and birds.

3. Driving with the sun roof open and the breeze in my hair. Makes the ride home so much sweeter.

4. For my sweet Cali girl. I love the way you snuggle and purr.

5. Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream. I am completely helpless to it's powers!

Friday 5

1. To have my girl home again. I missed her so much, my words can't even describe it.

2. The beautiful warm sun shining through the windows while we rested.

3. Pellegrino and lime.

4. The extra bit of daylight at the end of my work day.

5. Knowing that spring is just around the corner.

Saturday 5

Been a while since I posted here. Life gets weird for me after the holidays. I just hibernate and do home improvement projects. Mmmhhmm, I know. Don't even say it! I still write my gratitude down in my paper journal, but some how the time never is there to translate it to this blog.

1. For a call saying Sweet Pea's blood tests came back looking really good.
(For those of you who don't read my other blog, Pea is facing some surgery on Tuesday. I'm worried sick, and all prayers and good thoughts said on our behalf are appreciated.)

2. For my new sofas! Gaaaaa I love them.
After 17 years with the old ones, they are a welcome change!

3. For the kindness of a stranger.
I was waiting at my vet, because Pea needed to get some blood work done. A man near me asked me a question about why we were there, and I kinda melted into tears. When we were done and I went outside, he was there waiting. He asked if I minded if he prayed over Pea, and of course I said I didn't mind at all. He talked about losing his dog at Christmas this past year. He was originally from Oklahoma and had the cutest accent. His voice and prayer was just very soothing to me.

4. For my son, who had a birthday this weekend, and reminded me again about what life is all about.

5. For my home.
In this time of uncertainty for so many, I can still call it mine.